1st Valentine's Day Love of my life

although she dosen't know the difference my little is dressed for the occasion in her red & white w/ her pink "my 1st valentine's day bib". She has received more gifts than I did today. That goes to show how she is loved " by me & her me-mom". I am so blessed to have her in my life and although I show her and tell her everyday I want her to know today that she is indeed my valentine.


Happy 1st V-Day my little princess!! Mommy loves you dearly.


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Love Child

Happy birthday Nana! Today the to celebrate love and my for some a day to celebrate life. Today my Nana get to roll it all into one. As you alway say "I wish you luck, health, & wealth" right back you Nana.


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I AM SO OVER YOU....

... and your smart mouth & critisicism. Sometimes you really sound like a hater. I love you but you just don't know what to say sometimes.



... and your mood swings. I will no longer make excuses for why things in your life is fucked up. You fucked them up.



... and your vindictiveness. Remember I don't need you, You need me. And I WON"T ask you for nothing ever again.



... and your jealousy. It's not my fault you can't grab a hold your life and keep together. Shit, I barely can but I refuse to show it to the whole world. GET IT TOGETHER



... and your sorry attempts. It took me awhile but I REALLY no longer want you. Take care.



... and your ability to make me feel ashamed. I have found my strength and will live life happily.



... and your lack of support. I held annomosity for all of you but I"m good and will be good without yall help. I am no longer mad but just know I think of ALL of you a little differently.



... and your cheap asses. One day this will all be JUST a memory. I can't wait!!!



... holier than thou attitude. Your shit stink too and you get reminded more often than you want to realize. Open your eyes and close your mouth you'll be a litter better off, I promise.





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Real Life Barbie Doll

that what's I treat her like sometimes. I'll say let me see how this looks on you, "CUTE!!" OK lets take a picture. "Hi mommas smile for me" Thank you. Poor child I know she is using baby curse words all the time. Gotta love it though.

Ahhh mother hood

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Torn

I feel like I am at a fork in the road with so many things. Friendships, relationships, career choices, education, & my living situation. I find myself faced with having to make a lot of decisions all around the same time. Some are very important, some can be dealt with later, and some can be left to just work themselves out. But all these decisions and thoughts consume me and keep me up at night. Sometimes I'm working and all of a sudden I stop and I'm obsessed with finding the details of a situation that just suddenly popped into my head. I can't seem to handle one thing at time right now. It's like I'm forced to multitask but never really finish anything. I know I sound crazy. Lately I feel like I'm going crazy but such is the life I chose so I'll live with it. Or do I?

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GIMME A BREAK

Sometimes don't you wish you could just push the pause button on everything around you so you could get some things done and jump right back into life? Well I do. My life is in overdrive right now. With little one, work, soon school, trying to clear my credit so I can contemplate a house in the near future. Looking for a new job so I can comfortably afford this house. I just wish I could push pause. Doing this all by myself gets a little overwhelming sometimes, but I'm managing. Although, lately I've been having the sudden urge to be married. I don't know why. It could be my half assed sorry unofficial proposal from an ex, it could be that becoming a mom has made me feel like I need to be a wife, or it could be the baby's recent 4:45 am wakings and talks makes me wish I wasn't doing this alone. Either way, right now I keep wishing I'd wake up and be married already. I am feeling the need to come home, hand baby off, get dinner ready, we all sit down to eat, we play with little one, then get her settled and in bed, then on to grown up time. But that far from what happens and far from happening anytime soon. So for right now I guess I'll keep getting up and talking with little one until she off in sleepy land again. I know it is going to be a challenge but I know I can do it. I half want to do it alone so I can pat myself on the back say "I am every woman".

Nah who am I kidding. Mr. Right please hurry!!!

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Wrong Answer

So I spent the night and he was showing little signs that he wanted to be intimate. I sooo was not up to it but knew that probably would be the case when I went over there. Anyway he wakes and we start and about half way through:

me(in my head): i got mine please hurry up
him: r u ok? how do you feel?
me(out loud): I'm fine
me(in my head): oh wait wrong answer
me(out loud):oooh this is goood, OOOOHHH THIS IS GOOOOOD!!!!
him: you better be more than just fine.
me(in my head): sorry dang! I'm just going to bite the pillow and grunt. That'll work.

Hahahaha

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