Sometimes don't you wish you could just push the pause button on everything around you so you could get some things done and jump right back into life? Well I do. My life is in overdrive right now. With little one, work, soon school, trying to clear my credit so I can contemplate a house in the near future. Looking for a new job so I can comfortably afford this house. I just wish I could push pause. Doing this all by myself gets a little overwhelming sometimes, but I'm managing. Although, lately I've been having the sudden urge to be married. I don't know why. It could be my half assed sorry unofficial proposal from an ex, it could be that becoming a mom has made me feel like I need to be a wife, or it could be the baby's recent 4:45 am wakings and talks makes me wish I wasn't doing this alone. Either way, right now I keep wishing I'd wake up and be married already. I am feeling the need to come home, hand baby off, get dinner ready, we all sit down to eat, we play with little one, then get her settled and in bed, then on to grown up time. But that far from what happens and far from happening anytime soon. So for right now I guess I'll keep getting up and talking with little one until she off in sleepy land again. I know it is going to be a challenge but I know I can do it. I half want to do it alone so I can pat myself on the back say "I am every woman".
Nah who am I kidding. Mr. Right please hurry!!!
Over & Out
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